New blog! While I’ll probably still post on my old one, I wanted a new one to write about diabetes, faith, & the road to pregnancy. I’ve been a type 1 diabetic for 15 years ((since I was 7)) & haven’t really been tightly controlling it until the beginning of the year. I have no signs of any complications thank the Lord, but now that hubby & I are planning to ttc in spring…I’m paranoid. If my eye twitches or the area where my kidneys are hurt, I think ‘Oh no, I’m not going to be able to have a child’.
I know it’s irrational, & I know I should have been taking care of myself better since I was first diagnosed but I can’t help but have these thoughts. It was hard as a child because I didn’t really understand the disease I had, then as a teenager after having it for so many years, & being the only one who had to go through it I rebelled against it. My a1c’s were anywhere from 8.0% to my highest at 10.7%.
Now that I’m ready to be a mother I’ve started exercising, controlling my blood sugars, & am really trying hard to take good care of myself. My last a1c was 6.9% & I’m aiming for at least a 6.5% with my next doctors visit. At 6.9 my endo said I was in good shape to start ttc, but I want better numbers, an ok from my gyno, & an ok from my eye doctor first. I want to cover all my bases to protect me & my future baby.
I have fallen off the wagon in the past 6 weeks. Blood sugars are everywhere, eating bad, & not really exercising. I don’t know what happened but it’s like my light switch got turned off. So with starting this new blog, using http://www.sparkpeople.com, & looking at message boards//other blogs about type 1 & pregnancy, I think I’ve really found my motivation to jump full force back on that wagon.
But I don’t want to JUST concentrate on a baby. In the next 8//9 months ((planning on ttc may 2011)) I’d also like to go back to school & get my cna II, brush up on my french, really build up that savings account, buy our first house, train for a 10k & a sprint-triathlon.
I’ve started taking prenatal vitamins, just to make sure I’m getting all the nutrients I need. I’ve started praying & reading my bible, & just trusting the Lord more which has made a huge difference in all aspects of my life. I know God won’t just make me healthy, but I pray everyday that if it be His will that come spring to bless my husband & I with a healthy pregnancy & a healthy baby. I get so worried that I’ll be told not to get pregnant, that something will go wrong when I’m pregnant, or that the baby won’t be born healthy. I know I need to leave my worries with God & not take them back from Him but it’s hard sometimes.
Anyways, can’t wait for the many more posts to this blog in the future!!