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Happy 17th Diaversary to me!!! If you don’t know, a diaversary is the anniversary of a diabetes diagnoses. On March 11, 1995 when I was 7 years old I was told I have Type 1 Diabetes.

I was going to do this whole big post on my diagnoses story and this & that but that seems…eh not so fun. So I wanted to make a list of things my diabetes hasn’t stopped me from doing:

  • Flying in a plane
  • Being in Marching Band (band geek whoo!!!)
  • Dating
  • Learning French (not that I have anyone to talk to)
  • Graduating with Honors
  • Horseback Riding
  • Going to Disney, & Universal, & visiting my Florida family
  • Going on a cruise
  • Going out with friends
  • Camping
  • Dancing around like a fool every chance I get
  • Going to my first live baseball game
  • Running two 5k’s
  • Getting Married
  • Buying my first home
  • Getting a dog
  • Going to Merlefest
  • Going to Williamsburg, VA
  • Getting pregnant (♥)

So I left a lot of things out & it’s not exactly in order but hey, it shows that over the last 17 years I’ve not let me diabetes define my life. Yes it’s a big part but it’s not the only part.

Here’s to another 17 years (& many more) with my rude, unwilling to contribute pancreas. 17 more years of changes & upgrades in diabetes care and management. But mostly, 17 more years of living life to the fullest, with my husband at my side, & a whole bunch of babies!!!

Apologies, Apologies

I am SOOOO sorry I haven’t posted in forever. Just a lot going on right now. But I will do a really good post soon & get back on track I promise!!! I’ve got a few pics to show you guys, & stuff to catch you up on.

One thing is I’m now having more good days than bad days when it comes to my miscarriage.  My most recent bad day was Saturday, so it’s getting better slowly but surely.

I love you guys, stick with me I promise I’ll get back on this horse ASAP.


Hitting a vein.

Sucks.  Got this little surprise when I took my site out this evening.

Don’t judge me for taking the time to snap this pic.

Well at least that solves the mystery of my highs this evening!!!

Welcome back Dexy!

So I’ve not been using my Dexcom for months now!!! Ugh, I know right. So today I finally put Dexy back on the charger & ordered more sensors, much to the delight of my deductible! I’ve not really been using it because Luke got a hold of it & did a number on the poor guy.  Still works fine, just doesn’t look so good & who knows how long it’ll last.

Luckily, I’m still under warranty so I can get a new one for a cool $200.  I’ll probably break down & get it soon…just not right after I’ve spent about $700 on pump supplies and sensors that will lovingly fill my deductible up.  Whew, at least I got it done early.

So I’m SUPER excited to be using the Dex again because I know that my A1C is way up.  I’m just now coming off the burnout after my miscarriage & am ready to take care of myself & get back on top of things.  Like tonight for dinner, instead of going out or getting fast food I actually cooked 🙂 & from start to finish, no help from the hubby.  I made a lemon/herb chicken with cucumbers & steamed veggies. So yay for good food choices tonight.

Hopefully it’ll last into tomorrow and I can get the momentum rolling and get the taking care of myself back on top of the priority list.

Just a short one today I know.  I promise to get back into the blogging groove now that the rest of my life seems to slowly be falling back into place.  I’ll leave you with a picture of the pup 🙂

My new favorite t-shirt

I think it speaks for itself 🙂

This is one of the many shirts you can find here at the ‘Diabetees’ store. There were definitely some I really liked but this one has to be my favorite!

Finding my way back…

So I’ve not posted in a LONG TIME!!! I’m soooo sorry!!! But when I was about to do my next post several months ago I actually found out I was pregnant 🙂 🙂 So while trying to wrap my head around that & get to all the doctors etc. I decided to wait to do another post until after we heard the heartbeat.

On the day we went to the doctor to hear the heartbeat we didn’t. Instead we found out that my pregnancy was actually collapsing on itself & I was going to miscarry. Luckily Aaron was there with me that day & I will never forget the look on his face when the doctor told us. He had this stoic, hard mask on. You could tell he was sad but he was being strong. He put himself aside so he could be there for me. And goodness knows I needed him. I was pretty numb at first, but by the time we got home I was lost. I cried & cried & cried.  And Aaron was there, so supportive, being whatever I needed him to be.

That was December 28th.  The following Monday on January 2nd Aaron & I lost our baby.  It was painful, sad, & pretty traumatic.  I was just over 9 weeks pregnant so my doctor said I experienced about 80% of the pain I would feel during actual labor.  It was horrible.  It would have been bearable if I’d have gotten a precious little baby out of it.  But I didn’t.

That was 4 weeks ago tomorrow & it still feels just as raw.  I do understand however that it wasn’t my only chance at a child, that God has a reason why He wanted this perfect little baby more than I did, & I do have some peace with it.  I honestly do.  Does that make the pain easier? Not one bit. But I’m not angry, sad yes, but I’m not angry.  I’m doing my best not to let it make me bitter.  I have some pregnant friends that do sometimes complain about bring pregnant & it takes everything  that I have not to make some snide remark about how they should just be happy that they’re still pregnant.  I just think to myself that if I were them I’d probably be complaining of the same things 🙂

So now I’m trying to find my way back from that.  My diabetes kind of took a backseat throughout this, which I know I shouldn’t have let it but I wasn’t thinking about the future at that moment & the future children I would have.  All I was thinking of was that I didn’t have a little baby in me to take care of anymore so what the eff was the point??  Why should I check my blood sugar, or eat right?? I have nothing to nurture and care for anymore.  Then as a week or two went by I realized that I need to start taking extra good care of myself for me, my husband, my dog, & my future children.  Just because I couldn’t carry this one doesn’t mean I never will.  & I need to make sure that the next tiny baby has a healthy happy home inside me.

So I’m finding my way back from the fog.  I’m finding me again, & regaining my happiness.  I can talk about my miscarriage & my angel baby now easier than I could.  I don’t want to act like this baby never happened.  It was real, it was my child no matter how long I carried it.

So now I’m back 🙂 And I’m getting healthy, & checking my blood sugars, & pulling all the pieces of me back together.  I’m ready to start blogging again after my leave of absence.  To end this post I’d like to share a quote that helped me when I found out I would lose my baby.  I love you guys 🙂

“Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers but to be fearless in facing them. Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it. Let me not look for allies in life’s battlefield but to my own strength. Let me not cave in.”
-Rabindranath Tagore
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